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It’s strange and it’s a feeling I’m not used too. You don’t give me butterflies anymore and I don’t ever feel like talking to you. Is this how it feels to be completely over your first love? I cannot fathom the thought of being emotionless for this guy. But I am. I’m sorta happy. I wonder who’s the next guy I’n going to fall in love with. I’m so impatient to find out who it is. I can’t wait to start a family. I hope this guy will be all I’ve ever dreamed of. He’s someone walking on this earth. Now I just need to let fate do its thing.

Fuck

I just thought about the time I was truly happy with him. I thought about when I slept over his house and how sex went terribly wrong and I cried and held me saying it was okay. We went to bed and we fought about which side we were sleeping. Finally we slept and halfway through the night, we woke up just to have sex then went back to sleep. I woke up right next to him and he kissed me. I got dressed and was about to leave. He hugged me so tight and kissed me more. Only pecks since we both had morning breathe. He walked me down the stairs and kissed me one last time. When I got back to my cousins house since I sneaked out, I got a text from him. He said that was the greatest night of his life and he couldn’t be happier with me. After remembering that, I cried. I couldn’t help to miss how happy I was with him. I can’t believe I cried again.